Guest Post by Kerri Couillard
If you are planning to attend the Airport Welcome Home Party this Thursday night at the Albuquerque Sunport, you might be wondering what the Grassmicks' wishes are for when they all stumble into our hands.
When you first see them, they would like for their kids that have been here in New Mexico to greet them and have a little mini-family reunion apart from everyone else. This make take a few minutes or more. Then their Grandparents will join them and they plan to walk and join their friends. As you would imagine, they would like to look into each one of their children's eyes and hug them etc. without a big distraction. This isn't because they don't love you - they do and they do want you there. Also, don't expect to hold the babies and I know this will be hard. In time, as they adjust, we will all be able to squeeze them then.
If you haven't been personally invited, I would like to take the opportunity to do so. Not only is this Airport Welcome Home Party going to support the parents, the children, their grandparents, but it will be recorded for Elsie and Ki for when they grow up. They can see what lovingly open arms and hearts we all have for them and adoption in general.
If you would like more information and be notified of any delays, please email jasonkerri@gmail.com or call 505-231-8370. Texts are ok too.
We have made many beautiful signs and tshirts to share. Just come and celebrate the way God Moved Mountains.
Tuesday, November 27, 2012
Sunday, November 18, 2012
We Have An Exit Plan
Each day last week we were told our passports would be
ready. So on Friday when we headed to town, my expectations were not high. I
was just going to try to enjoy the change of pace of being in town. Joy,
Rashid’s wife, drove us and the other family to the passport office. She went
in, and us Muzungus waited outside. We were parked under a tree and there was a
dirt/grassy area under the trees as well. We strolled and sat and ate.
One of the trickiest parts of this whole deal is that the US
Embassy only does certain things on certain days for certain amounts of time.
Monday, Wednesday, Friday from 8am to 11:30am, they accept visa paperwork. If
you are not signed in by 11:30 then they ask you to come back. The passport guy
told us 9:30am, which gave us some fudge room. Rashid had told us that if Joy
walked out anytime after 11:00am that we should jump on a boda boda and get to
the Embassy. Anytime before 11:00am and Joy would have time to drive us there.
Now a boda boda is a guy on a motorcycle that you pay to get
you somewhere quickly. There are thousands of boda bodas sitting around Kampala
waiting for someone to hop on. And there are thousands of them weaving in and
out of traffic on the road. I LOVED this idea. Jonathan, not so much.
Around 11:00am I was getting antsy and so I decided to do a
little prayer-walk. Ki was sleeping on my back so I could here myself think and
cry out to God. I wasn’t mad that we didn’t have our passports yet because the
peace He had given me at the beginning of the week was lingering. But I was
just ready. So I was asking for passports AND peace if we didn’t get them. (I’m
learning that peace is way more important than our way in this process.)
As I was nearing the entrance of the passport building I saw
Joy round the corner. It was almost ten after eleven. There was a crowd between
us so I had time to brace myself for whatever answer she was going to dish out.
When we made eye contact, she shook her head no. Sigh. Okay. God is bigger. I
can handle this. But I was wondering what the passport guy’s excuse was this
time. Last Wednesday and Thursday it was a funeral. Tuesday it was Parliament.
Wednesday and Thursday he was in jail. (Yes, you read that correctly.) I was
wondering what it would be today. When she caught up to me, I turned around and
asked, “Why not?” She was slow to answer but she asked me why I asked. This threw
me off a little. I answered with “I don’t know.” But then she asked if Jonathan
would get on a boda boda. (She knew his aversion.) I was confused and asked
why. “To get to the Embassy!” she said. “Oh, YOU GOT THEM!!!! WHAT? ARE YOU
KIDDING? DO YOU HAVE THEM OR NOT???” was my reply.
Come to find out she was shaking her head because she
thought it was too late because Jonathan wouldn’t get on a boda boda and with
the traffic at a stand still, she knew we wouldn’t make it on time. And she
also told us later that one of the passports had been printed wrong and so it
had to be re-printed and signed again. And Joy was in the office praying, “Your
will be done, Your will be done...” over and over. We were all praying that
morning.
Okay, so I start jogging to the car to tell the other family
to get ready and to tell Jonathan to get the backpack with the paperwork in it.
In a moment of clarity, I asked Joy if she could take the kids in the car so we
didn’t have to ride with them and she agreed. (Don’t judge that I would have
ridden on a boda boda with my babies. You have not seen what I have seen here.
I have seen two and three children sandwiched between the driver and another
adult. I have seen a kid by himself holding on for dear life to the driver with
his head buried in the driver’s back.) So, Joy waved down 4 boda bodas. We
practically tossed our kids in the car and jumped on. I told my driver that
this was my first time and not to kill me! It was the ride of my life. I LOVED
it. There is something about wind in my hair that makes me happy. I now
understand why so many people don’t want to hear helmets.
So, we left the passport office at 11:09 and reached the
Embassy which was half way across the capital city of Uganda, paid our drivers,
checked our bag (you can’t take food, water, electronics, CHAPSTICK, anything
but papers into the Embassy), went through security, jogged to the office, and
were signing by 11:23am. ROCKIN AWESOME.
We could breathe. We made it. And we had our kids’
passports. Happy Day. We were in there for about 2 hours because there were
other adopting families there to drop off paperwork and several families
picking up their visas. When we were called in, we went through our paperwork
with the lady and schedule our interview. The Embassy only conducts interviews
on Monday and Wednesday afternoons. And next week was all booked up. So 2pm
Monday, November 26 it is. That gives us time next week to go on Safari and do
a little shopping before we have to get back down to business. I was hoping to
fly home on Thanksgiving Day, but I’m just going to trust that God has got this
still.
So, interview on Monday the 26th, which means we
should be able to pick up our visas on Wednesday at the latest. They need 24 to
48 hours to print them. We are scheduled to hop on a plane that Wednesday night
at 11:30pm. That puts us back in Albuquerque around 7:45 Thursday night.
The Wednesday flight makes me a little nervous just because
it leaves us very little time for error but there is not flight with KLM on
Thursday and the flights on Friday and Saturday are $3000 more A PIECE.
Yowzers. And we don’t want to wait longer than that!!! And Jonathan has to get
back to work. He gets two weeks of vacation pay a year so we will be 3 weeks in
the hole when we get back. (So thankful that his boss was gracious enough to
give him the time off to come.) Oh, and did I mention that I CAN’T WAIT to see
my sweet New Mexico four!!!
So, pray with us that everything goes well on Monday the 26th
and that our visas are printed quickly.
Once we check that off, you can start begging the Lord with
us that our two babies that have constant sinus issues and have never seen a
plane full of people (or empty for that matter) and have never used a seat belt
will be first-time plane Rock Stars.
Monday, November 5, 2012
Hodge Podge
We are TB free! Both kids passed the medical exams and the
files are being sent to the Embassy this afternoon. I’m not sure what their
health standards are, but Ki is funky lately. He couldn’t sleep last night
because his nose was full and overflowing, which, for a thumb sucker is deadly.
Now today he has a frequent cough. We are hoping and praying that we can get
these worked out before the plane ride home. We bought more meds today and they
seem to be working.
And things seem to be moving well, so for all of you out
there praying for 3 weeks, keep it up! Our court ruling is tomorrow. Then we
work on passports and then we apply for visas at the Embassy. The one thing
that I can think of that might hold the visas up is our financial stuff. Since
we work on a ranch and have to live on site, our housing and utilities are part
of our compensation package. This in turn makes our salary look small. We have
to prove (with tax information) that we make enough money to support our
family. Pray that the documentation that describes our compensation package
will be enough for the Embassy.
The night we got here Rashid told us that Ki is a miracle
baby. He said when he was brought to the orphanage, he was near death. He was
almost a year old and couldn’t hold his head up. Rashid said it would have only
been a matter of time before he died. Now, after 4 months here, Ki is sitting
up and ooching around well. I can’t call it a crawl, but he can move. He likes
standing with help now too. Another interesting fact about Ki is that he is an
ambidextrous thumb sucker. Shocking. None of my thumb suckers have been able to
switch.
We are going to try to go on a safari. I hope we can fit it
in somehow. But we also want to get home. We can’t wait to introduce these
little ones to our other kids and our family and friends.
The wedding we went to on Saturday would have been super
neat if the orphanage workers weren’t there. It was just another sad day for
Elsie, but she bounced back pretty quickly. I think we have decided that Jonathan
will go to the orphanage without Elsie and me. Then, maybe we can switch. It is
hard to balance being here for our children and doing what is best for them and
blessing the people and other children here. But I do have a peace about
putting Elsie first. Her heart is tender and fragile and we have been given a
short time to tend it and we need to make the most of the time we have.
We are sitting outside the medical building right now
waiting for another couple to finish up and Jonathan has music playing on his
phone. And ELSIE HAS GOT SOUL. Something the Grassmick family severely
lacks...until now, that is.
We found out that Ki’s last name is some ancient Ugandan
God, and we were going to use those as their new middle names, so we are
thinking about changing them. Rashid is trying to figure out what Kafuko means,
which is Elsie’s last name. We might just use that for both of them. Here in
Uganda you get your last name by what tribe you are from, but each tribe has a
hat full of names they can choose from so most of the time, siblings don’t have
the same last name.
I think we are out of survival mode now. We are starting to
think about what it will be like and what we will do once we get home.
I don’t think we could be on this journey without all of you
and your support. Thank you for your part in this amazing story that is
unfolding.
Thursday, November 1, 2012
Court From My Eyes
Thanks Jonathan for writing the first post about our first
court date. I loved reading the different perspective. I thought that I’d
explain the journey from my eyes.
I had been thinking that is was a little overkill to get
here 3 days before our court date but gosh, I’m really glad we had that time to
get to know Elsie. We keep saying she is a tough nut to crack. But, by Tuesday
morning, she was pretty comfortable with me and not freaking out when sitting
next to Taata (which means Daddy in Luganda). We ran a few errands and carrying
around a toddler and a backpack proved to be a little sweaty. I kept yelling to
Rashid, reminding him of my short legs. He would look back and give a sly smile
and chuckle. But, he was slow down to a normal speed for a least a minute or
so.
I felt safe while we were out. Jonathan and I were laughing
and having fun together. Rashid left us alone at a Mazungu café for a couple of
hours, which felt normal, which was nice.
Before he walked away, he told us that he was going to find
the birth mom and feed her lunch. She left super early and had a hard journey
and hadn’t eaten. He said she felt weak and her heart was pounding. Gosh, what
an ordeal for her. She didn’t want any of this. And she hates it all while in
the middle of it. But she gets what so many of us don’t....it isn’t about her.
She isn’t doing this because it will make her life better. Her life sucks. Her
husband most likely fooled around with someone that was HIV positive and once
he found out he was infected, he had to tell his wife what he had done. I’m
sure that night was hell for her. Oh, and she was pregnant so now she has to
worry about the health of her unborn child on
top of worrying about how long will she will be able to raise her other
children. Thanks, Frank. So, then he dies at or near their home of Malaria. And
even when someone you love has wronged you, you hurt when something like this
happens. Another terrible day for Pauline. So, she gets on with her life and
six months after burying her husband, she gives birth to his last child. But
she knows she is HIV positive so she can’t nurse him. And no one is working to
provide for her so she can’t feed him. So, the nightmare continues. And after a
year she realizes, as her health is fading, that she just can’t do it. She
can’t feed them. And even to take care of them is getting tough. She doesn’t
want the older kids to miss out on an education because of her story. So, she
decides it isn’t about her and what she wants and how she feels. It is about
what is best for her children; her older children and her younger children. And
so she lets them go. But it isn’t that easy. She isn’t getting rid of them
because they are a burden, or she would have just left them by the village
trash or just let them wither away. She cares deeply for them and wants for
them what she didn’t have and to do that, she has to deny herself. Rashid told
me when Pauline gave the kids to him, Elsie cried for days. Pauline knew how
precious her daughter was and how much this was going to hurt Elsie, but she
did it anyway. Then, she had to come to Kampala to terminate her rights as
their parent; a long, hard journey. And this day, she is back again. Tired,
broken, hungry, and hurting.
I could see all this in a nano-second when she walked in the
waiting room door. Her eyes told me the whole story. She wanted to look at the
babies, and wanted to be strong enough NOT to look at the babies. I could see
the battle going on inside of her. And it was taking its toll on her fragile
soul. I had prepared NO words for this moment. I just motioned to ask if I
could hug her. I wanted to take some of her pain. I wanted her to know that she
is loved by a family of New Mexicans and that while we can’t make everything
okay, we would love these two little people as our own. We hugged and she cried
for just a bit and then my focus shifted. It is hard to love two sides of the
same coin at the same time. By love, I don’t mean the feeling kind of love. I
mean the Jesus kind of love, the kind of love that does and acts and wipes
tears away. I wanted to sit with her and hear her story and cry with her. But I
couldn’t. I had a broken, whimpering gift in my arms. And if I was to love her
the best, I had to walk away.
I sat back in my chair and Elsie’s whimpering escalated to
crying. She was trying to look behind us and confirm what she had seen just a
few minutes before. I shimmied my shoulders and shifted in my chair. I shushed
her and sang to her but her heart was broken. And I knew that Pauline could
hear and see it all. Two sides of the coin, both broken. I was in
between...praying. It was all I had to offer. As she got louder, she started
pushing me away and wouldn’t look into my eyes. I don’t think I will ever
understand her pain, but I feel like God gave me a glimpse. I wanted to take it
all away. And I knew that in my power I couldn’t. So, I asked the only one
powerful enough to come in.
Lord, Elsie is hurting and there is nothing I can do to stop
it. She needs You, Holy Spirit, to come and comfort her. I want You to wipe her
heart clean and love on her. Be near to Elsie Lord.
I decided to walk out and wander the hallways. We went potty
in a not so wonderful bathroom. (It was America-bad, not Uganda-bad. There was
a toilet and a place for toilet paper and a sink and mirror.) After she went, I
stood her up on the counter and showed Elsie her reflection. She smiled. She
was wearing a beautiful dress and a little crocheted sweater and a pink sparkly
headband. We played. I showed her how to stick her tongue out and for a moment
she forgot her pain. We found a little nook in the hall and I held her and
rocked her. She sucked her thumb and went from blank to sad and back to blank a
couple of times.
I was so connected to her and how to help her that I was
shocked when we got called in. So soon? I hadn’t dwelled on it yet. I thought
we would have more time. But the moment had arrived. Pauline sat catty-corner
behind us and so Jonathan blocked Elsie’s sight of her birth mom as long as I
held her the right way. Most of court was a blur. I wasn’t fully present in
court. I was fully present in Elsie’s world. I was keenly aware that I might
miss something important but knew Elsie’s heart was my mission. Pauline was
called up to talk with the judge. I turned Elsie to face backwards. She kept me
on my toes. Pauline spoke very softly, which I was really thankful for. I don’t
know what I would have done if her voice was like mine. J Even thought I don’t think I
had the presence of mind to pray for her, I know I was hoping that the judge
wasn’t being mean. After Pauline, it was my turn. I had to hold Elsie with her
back to her birth mom. The judge took his time with stories and questions. He
would pause for a good 30 seconds after his story before he asked his question.
I just kept my gaze on him and waited. While answering I continued to remember
the advice to be short and to the point. He is a man, he is okay with man-sized
answers. So, even when I wanted to keep going, I would stop. I remember once
even saying out loud, “I’m going to stop there.” It made me feel better somehow
to let everyone know I could keep
going. Some of his questions were fair and some not so fair, but I shot
straight and kept his eyes. My arm, by the end of my turn was ON FIRE. J The lawyer mentioned
that we had purchased the certificate from the King’s Palace and the picture of
the King, but we forgot it in the car. He said, “That is very unfortunate.”
Awesome. But you know, I think even that was from God. While we were buying
those things earlier in the day I was thinking that I didn’t want to show off
for the judge. My God is our King and He is doing this work. I wanted to be
relying on Him, not papers. The judge’s next question was to ask if Jonathan
would be leaving soon and letting me finish up by myself here in Uganda.
Jonathan responded with such grace and confidence. “No sir, I am staying until
the end. This is important to me.” Judge Moses looked up from his writing and
grabbed the calendar.
(A little back ground: Of the families that have gone
through this judge from this orphanage, they have had to wait between 10 days
and 3 weeks for a ruling, I’ve heard. And if you would have seen the post I
wrote, but never got to send, you would know that I wanted God to move
mountains....again. In my post the night before I asked for you guys to pray
for one week. And that is what we got. When he said Tuesday, November 6, I
really wasn’t expecting him to be telling us that yet. We had only been in
court for 45 minutes. The family that did this before us, spent 2 hours and 45 minutes
in the court room. Jonathan hadn’t gone up yet. I was focused on Elsie. She was
singing louder than she ever had before. (It was still what we call a
whisper-sing, but it was louder.) So,
I was confused and when it registered I thought, “Did he say the 16th
or 6th?” Jonathan confirmed mountains were moved. 1 week. That got
my tear ducts going. And we blinked and court was adjourned. Done. I think it
shocked me so much that it took me a minute to start packing up and the lawyer
basically told us to get out...kindly of coarse.
We fumbled to get our stuff and stand up. Did I mention it
was boiling-lava hot in that room? I asked Jonathan to go catch Pauline and get
a picture with her but told him I was going to hang back. I sat Elsie down in
the hallway and got out some gummy treats. She was waving and smiling at people
as they walked by. She was not the same little girl that sat in my lap, broken,
only an hour before. We walk-jumped down the stairs and met Jonathan outside. I
was full of questions trying to get a sense of things from Jonathan. I was
still a little stunned that it was over. Jonathan had to stop me (surprise,
surprise) and say “Look! Elsie is twirling.” Elsie was teeth-showing happy. God
came in and she hasn’t been the same since. We still have a long way to go, but
we have turned a corner. And with God on our side, we are moving forward.
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